Monday, May 26, 2008

so, as it would happen,

i had a reason to be nervous about my boyfriend's behavior over the summer. i hate that my intuition tends to be right because that makes me always afraid to be intuitive. because it is always an upsetting event.

also, his parents are making him go to IUPUI next year, which stands for Indiana University/Purdue University Indianapolis. it is like a UNO or a UNK. this means that our relationship is going to be like this all the time: always separate except for an occasional weekend. i guess that would give me a lot of time for my trust to grow but i'm not sure it can get bigger if it is not there in the first place.

i could say things about how if it's meant to happen it will or that we can make it work if it means that much to us but right now i am just feeling sad.

1 comment:

Candace said...

may your sadness turn into something else that is not sadness.
whoever said separation makes the heart grow fonder is stupid. but whatever happens you will rock it out.