Friday, January 16, 2009

the difference

between your heart and mine is you would sacrifice everything, and i already have.

here is something i am going to say that i don't say to many people but i think the internet is the best place to share secrets. i have social anxiety disorder. i am taking medication for it. it is helping. a lot. i am happier than i have been in a long time, which makes me happy. some people do not agree with psychiatric medications (notably tom cruise, but the list contains several more sane individuals) and sometimes i used to feel that way but now that i have experienced the difference, i have changed my mind. my mom thinks that if i pray more then i won't need medicine, or something like that, but i have tried a lot of praying in the past and maybe the medicine is the answer to that. maybe the answers don't always come in the way we expect them to, and maybe that makes God smile a little bit.

and maybe that should make me smile a little bit.

1 comment:

Candace said...

i am generally one of those tom cruise people. but mostly i just think that those medicines are over-prescribed, not that they shouldn't be prescribed to anybody. it's great that medication can help heal somebody's emotions when that person isn't capable of healing them his/herself. so basically i agree with you that maybe this is god's answer, and that makes me smile, too.