isn't it interesting how well people can lie. take, for instance, this boy who for over a year lied about his real personality. did he think i would not love this real person? was he so afraid that i wouldn't that he didn't even bother to try?

and so months and months and months passed and he decided he couldn't take it anymore and he had to be himself and so he got away. and here! i am. realizing that the boy i fell in love with does not actually exist. i gave my heart away to an imaginary boy.

now see how foolish he has made me feel.

i am not

the girl who wallows. i do not make it my business to miss people. there are too many people and i love them too deeply to miss them, if that makes sense. but this time it is different. and they keep saying it will take time, but how long, and what if it takes forever.

the french say tu me manques. in idiomatic english, it means "i miss you," but translates literally to mean, "you are missing from me." i like this better.

i squished you in between my cells and our molecules collided and now, you are missing from me.

i need help.